hating hate

You’re familiar with my weakness
Devoted to the end
Redeemer, Savior, Friend

I hate that I am transparent. That I cannot successfully veil grief nor distress. That my silence and hollow laughter invite probing questions from well-meaning friends. That the face I see in the mirror looks back at me with questions that I can’t answer. I hate that I am vulnerable and needy.

And I hate that I hate being this way. Which is good.

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5 thoughts on “hating hate”

  1. ok nga yung ganun eh, atleast, kahit pano, people who care about you can help you and pray for you.
    there was a time na ayokong may makabasa sa kin for lots of reasons, pero narealize ko, maraming advantages ang nababasa ka… πŸ˜‰

  2. oks lang yan bro. basta pag di na kayang itago, im here to listen. kahit wala meng ibigay na advice coz I believed that u already knw the answers to ur questions. Makikinig lang me bro..Kelan uli ang bonding? (hehehe…adik!)

  3. me mga times na akala ko pang-oscar’s best actress na ‘ko, being able to put a mask to hide what’s really within. lo and behold, di pala ako tumpak. hehe..

    next time kuya, hahayaan ko na lumampas yung tren, pramis. dito lang kami πŸ™‚

  4. Aleks, I sometimes–no, oftentimes–hate being vulnerable too so I guess I could relate with you.

    If there’s anything I could do to help, I’ll do it. πŸ™‚ But then again, there are places in our souls that only God could reach. If the journey is inward, all we outsiders could offer is prayer. So I pray. πŸ™‚ Hang in there.

  5. hey ol! lest u think im depressed or something, di naman πŸ˜‰ just melancholic and pensive… and writing “outloud”.

    God is a patient surgeon of the heart, and, slowly, i am learning to be a cooperative patient.

    Grabe, thanks for blessing me with your pwenships πŸ™‚ means a lot. *sniff* now is a good time to pass the tissue… πŸ˜‰

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